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Sunday, May 10, 2009
It's the holidays. You know, the study momentum from exam actually carried on into the holidays.... for about two days. The turning point was when
- One of my private students who has been really inconsistent in arranging lessons with me panicked because it was three weeks to her exams (it's two days from today at the time of this writing) and I hadn't even finished a large chunk of the syllabus with her.... I've been seeing her around 4 times a week for 3 hours at a go.... absolutely tiring.
- It's exam season for my group students, and I been putting in extra hours to help them out.
- I bought COH: Tales of Valour (WHICH HAS ONLY 9 BLOODY CAMPAIGN MISSIONS!!!!!)
- I'm working on two models, a tank (StuG III) and a gundam (RX-78-2 ver 1.5)
- I'm taking music theory lessons.
Yeah... I'm finding it hard to find time to play guitar... or maybe it's just that I've been lazy....
For some reason, I feel as if there's a dark cloud over my head. I guess it's origin stems from a number of things.
First, I can't seem to get the band together to play... People don't reply my emails, msges... I don't know.... I sense there's a reluctance to play. I mean.... I don't want assert myself either and annoy people over things they can't really be bothered with.
Second, I find myself telling wrong things to my students sometimes... I'm not sure if it's due to inexperience, or lack of preparation. Maybe both.... Another thing is that I'm not sure if what I say is lost on them... In the light of this, I don't really know if growing my classes is the right step at the moment.
Maybe I need some time alone. Some time to just sit down and learn new things without having to worry about anything. I actually miss the feeling of doing tutorials, working through the mathematics, completely focussed on the problem at hand, not giving a care about anything else.
On one hand, I can't wait for term to start. But on the other hand, I know that when term starts, exams will follow soon as well... and then there'll be the worry of how well I'll do for my next exam... sigh... I'm like, having some sort of love-hate relationship with school....
At least there's Japan to look forward to...
