I've just come noticed a few things that really bite at my impatient self. In the past few days, while doing my tutorials, I realised that I'm doing all sorts of shit that are so far removed from real life, or real physics for that matter. It's like playing a game. "Find the resistance of this doog shaped wire", "Prove that for all real numbers of x, that the series tends to infinity even though it's bloody obvious".... I don't know... Maybe it's just a phase. Maybe I'll stop bitching when I do my lab modules next sem. Maybe I'll bitch about lab when I do my lab modules next sem. 

Maybe I need a hobby. A hobby where I can at least make something and apply my brain at the same time..... Which reminds me... I've still got that diorama for that last gundam model I made. Plus I still have 4 unopened kits. Here's the problem, I'd like to resume making model kits, but I keep having this nagging feeling that I should be studying (and I really should).... Which leads me to feel bored all over again. 

On the issue of studies, I realised that I've been really careless with my work. Even though I can do most of my tutorials (specifically math), the tutor always makes me realise a very fundamental conceptual mistake which worries me. I'm going to have to spend more time during reccess week working out all these small kinks in my concept.

Sigh.... I'm very unsure about this sem... Part of me thinks that I have a chance in doing well.... The other part thinks it's all going to slip right through my fingers.... Well, what can we do about it? Sure or unsure, we have no choice but to press on.... To all who feel the same way, hang in there.....